The Fear

By Lilly Allen

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cause everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

Chorus: I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cause I'm being taken over by The Fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And it's not my fault it's how I'm programed to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track yeah I'm on to a winner

Chorus: I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cause I'm being taken over by The Fear

Bridge: Forget about guns and forget ammunition
'Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I'm getting thinner

Chorus: I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cause I'm being taken over by The Fear

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Graduation

In two days I will be walking in my high school graduation ceremony. I am fairly excited about it too. But my dad and a family friend keep trying to make me invite Tasha to the ceremony. Which I really don't want to do. They are too old fashioned to accept the fact that someone they know and love is a twat. I don't want her in my life; she is a bad person. She has been too malicious to me, and has selfishly hurt one of the best people I ever knew. She lies about me to my parents, has stolen from me, and has destroyed some of my property. There is no real value in a relationship with her and I don't want one.

Thankfuly my mom is a human with a soul and a mind and she understands my opinion. She has told me that I should never allow someone to make me do something that I don't want to do. She said this because she knows she can trust me to do right by people. She knows that I am not the type to just throw a fit and hate someone trivially. I don't like who Tasha is, and I don't want her around.

This is my damn night. Mine. Not Tasha's, not Mom's, and not Dad's. I earned my diploma with no help from any of them. Every grade I got was mine and mine alone. I can't let them take this out of my hands.