My Laziness

Someone close to me pointed out that I don't spend any time on myself. When I have spare time I do not take care of things that I should. I don't try to learn something I have wanted to know, I don't practice anything that I want to be good at. I hardly even pick up my books anymore. I watch tv, I watch someone else in what they are doing, or I try to find someone who isn't busy to hang out with.

I think the reason that I do this is because I grew up very poor in very dangerous neighborhoods. I went to school, did my homework, and then watched tv with my mom until I got tired and went to sleep. At one point I had a bike, which didn't last long. And at another point I had a Nintendo 64, which again did not last long. I never had a computer, I never had many books, I didn't have access to the knowledge and recreations that I do now.

That's my reasoning, but it's no excuse, and I really want to change it.

Good Word

Expectorate: v, to eject or expel matter from the throat or lungs by coughing or hawking and spitting; spit.

I would have never realised that the term 'spit' was so grotesque that scientists needed to come up with a professional term for it. It's a kick ass word anyway.

Karma?

It has been a while now since my sister and I have gotten along well. To say the least, she's a terrible person. She stole my couch, refused to take her name off of my bank account, and started lieing to my parents about what I've been up to in order to get me into serious trouble out of the blue, and for no real reason at all. This is really the least of the bull shit she has pulled. Not only to myself, but to other people who she has severly hurt with her selfish and shallow ways.

Today I went to my bank, told them my situation, and they removed her from my account, adding my mother as the "cosigner" instead. Great. I went from customer service to a teller so I could make a cash deposit. When I got my reciept for the transaction it showed that there was almost $600 more in my checking account than there should have been. I was immediatly suspicious and went right back to the customer service desk. I asked the woman to tell me what the transactions had been since I had accessed the account two days ago. She responded with "Well...it looks like earlier today Tasha deposited a check for the amount of $584.25 into this checking account."

I didn't hesitate to respond "This is a mistake, that money should not be in there, could you transfer that into her own primary account?"

I called Tasha to tell her about what was happening, and she ignored my call. I had my mom call her, explain to her the mistake she had made, and let her know that it was being corrected.

This is the only time in the 3 years that I have had that account that Tasha has made that mistake. AND she did it on the day that I had her removed from the account, so not only was it the last day she could have made that mistake, but also she could have done nothing to get that money back whatsoever.

It was Karma slapping her in the face for me. But I gave the money back. I've already had people tell me that I was stupid to give such a waste of air that money, that I deserved to gain it and she deserved to lose it. But I just can't handle that. It wasn't mine. I don't want her money.

Even though my mom was one of the people who said I should have run with it, she called me later and told me again how proud she was of me.

Dr. Meyer

Yesterday I went to a new dentist. I was squeamish all day. Dreading and fearing and worrying and freaking out; it was a rough day. I don't like going to the dentist. My teeth are sensitive and I don't like people's hands in my mouth. It was easily the best experience I have ever had with a dentist. I would even say it was enjoyable. My dentist, Dr. Meyer, was very much so like a friend of mine, only on speed. He didn't call me an idiot once, or give me the (you-have-been-a-very-very-bad-sugar-consuming-girl) look. He offered me a $80 tooth brush for $17. AND he recommend a paste that is guaranteed to build up my enamel and get rid of my weakness and sensitivity. I would even call the experience awesome.

The Game

Not the one that you just lost. The one that we are playing right now. It's a game called Amber which is based on a book series. The game is so infinitely entertaining that I strongly recommend it to all. I am going to read these books. They sound mind blowing.